Almost there

For once in my whole education journey I really pull myself tgt and force myself to study. I was all so ready for today's paper and DANG! I was barred from stats UT3. There goes my only chance to make me pass my module. This irritating fucked up module which I wan it to be gone for good so badly.

When I stepped into e classroom, I look up and saw "UT KEY EXPIRED" my heart sank. I walk out of the classroom, took a lift and broke down in tears. My chance gt crushed in my own hands. I blame myself for fucking my own life inside out. I am such a fucked up person that deserve a fucked up life. I walked away from e blk and towards e library, I cant hold my frustration, tears, anger, I jus kept crying. I dun care how any pairs of eyes are looking at me, I dun wish to know either. UT4, how am I gonna handle? It's gonna be tougher, it will clash with my Brunei performance trip and hence got the others affected. WELL DONE YO. U ARE SUCH A PAIN AND SPOILER.

Bye.

Haunting?

What the fuck is wrong with the manufacturer or maybe the paddle pop stick supplier?! Alrdy had a hard time trying to get over things that're chaotic recently and I jus can't have a peace of mind.

Leave me alone can or not?! Even time when like this I can see his name. What the fuck is wrong!

P/s: My aunt is laughing so hard now. Yes, at my misery;(

在每个人的欢笑背后都有一段不为人知的心酸故事。你又知道多少？

Darkest side

What happen today really make me give up my own life. I trust no one, really no one anymore. I keep asking myself, someone that's always so attentive at places like this, someone so unattractive but how can such things ever happen to me? I blame myself. I'm really scared an helpless for the first time of my life. Helpless and lifeless. I struggled, texted u. All u could reply is ..... I texted another SMS over and u din even bother. At that helpless point, all I could think of is u, even a call, I know u cares. U made me lost the battle.

我真的败给我自己了。我输乐。

Harsh lesson

I screwed up my performance. Wrong start to my song, twice in a row. Music's still playing and I'm alrdy filling in my lyrics. I cant think, cant concentrate. I ruin my own rice bowl. Who's ever gonna call me for show again?

Fucked up life, you, me, yea, fucked up my life.

Lesson learnt but too late.