2 yrs in BIT course cause me to go bonkers thrice. Once is my 1st yr Dreamweaver project, second is my WAD and now..... FLASH. I still cont convince even myself, why do i take this course?! Frm e very 1st yr, html codes, i knew i'm dead for good. Cant even manage simple computer knowledge and NOW HTML?! then all those PHP, Dreamweaver, FLASH came bombing into my life like a Bali Bomb-.-
Ytd, while i was in e lab, all my classmate were busy with their Flash projects (50% of our AIT) Having so much ego in me and all ready to start my flash project, i stared hard at e comp for 2 hrs and nth was done! That feeling was SHIT, total SHIT! I scored 1 mark for access. 1 MARK UPON 100, i may seems ok abt it in class, i'm calm or not so? i dunno. The moment QH shout out "HUH! Pris u really gt 1 mark for ya access"? I went blank, my brains shut down, legs went jelly, serious, i wasn't exaggerating. Let me ask u, who would wan to retain for another half a yr in their last yr of ITE life? Moreover, i've been studying for 12 yrs, yes, my grades sucks. Honestly, in this 12 yrs of education, i've NEVER scored 1/100 for any of my test! I'll never give up myself like tt, nt in e last time, nt now, never in e future. I know myself, i'll at least write something. Wad pricks me more was.. i actually studied for access and i know how to do it, it's impossible for me to get 1/100!!!! FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE! wadever, back to my flash, My class advisor and subject teacher did tried to appeal for me, so much so tt i wun have to face a "death sentence". The reply frm e section head was..... i gtta do well in my flash and they'll reconsider if i could take my access test again. Then the more i wan to do well in my Flash project, just... just.. i duno how to start and where to? I dare nt ask my frens for help cos they r all busy with their own projects and has their own "burden" to carry. I dun blame them(:
I'll figure a way out. I wun give up tt easily=) PU SA BAO YOU! haha. loves(:
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