Reflect

Had been slping really early these few days, guess it's just holiday symptom. When I slp late, i tend to think alot and reflect on many things that I've nv thought of in my busy life. Friendship, love, family blah blah blah and it can goes on and on.

I've take many things forgranted in life, friendship especially. I've lost contact with many friends though I know I'm always telling others that I am juggling my time well but look who's talking? I read one of my friend's blog recently. I felt guilty. Damn, it jus hit of to me that I am one of those ppl whom will disappear for a moment and only look for him when I needs a favour or so. I thought abt it and the conclusion hit off like an big car accident. BAHBOOM! I am an asshole. I always THOUGHT i tried and I THOUGHT I manage my time considerably well until today.

I know, I found out that I've let many of my friends down. Friends whom has always regard me as friends and friends whom stood by me even if I choose to go with other friends. There are days where they give up my little place in their heart and take in someone who are more worth the title... friend.

Even in my poly life, i repeat this dreadful mistakes. I know many of you might be nodding vigrously now.

I AM NOT A FRIEND. I'll try to be one. Hopefully, it's just not too late.