Coming to senses.

People only see e bad side of me and how I take my friends forgranted. Did anyone ever comment or reflect on how THEY take me forgranted?

If things won't planned, I wouldn't get so fucking pissed. Now what? My say worth zero sense huh? I am not pointing fingers at anyone now. But pls think reaaaally hard and ask yourself, did I ever play u out? How many times I say I cant make it but still show face in e end because of what u say. DID I EVER MAKE ANY NOISE WHEN I GOT KP BY MY AUNT FOR GG AGAINST HER? I attend all outings u planned or rather all outings that u're present. Not b cos I AM TOO FREE but b cos I care. I know u've planned and know that this and this will happen today and I dun wan to make u feel disappointed and so, I went, NO MATTER WHAT. But you friends! Ever did the same thing to me? ALL OF U DID WAS give me excuses like, Sorry i cant make it cos of 100001111101001100101 reasons. If I am just not as important or you just feel that I'm not someone you wish to hang out with, COME TELL ME STRAIGHT AT MY FACE. Don't throw stunts on me. I am sick and want to puke alrdy.

Today, I plan and scheduled my time. I know this and this will take place today but HELLO, you and you and thousands of YOU people play me out. 我是人，我也会闷, 我不是什么都 OK 的。I am not who you see and what you think. My plans are ruined, I'm stuck at my home now, ON A SATURDAY NIGHT.

AND YOU, You say u will join us for dinner, or meet us soon soon soon. WHERE IS YOUR SOON? U played US out twice. Fun huh? WHY DO I NEED TO FUCKING SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS AND MAKE THEM FEEL GOOD WHEN THEY DUN EVEN FUCKING CARE ABT ME? Where to find someone as stupid and dumb as me? Yah, laugh, point at me and insult me now cos I fucking numb alrdy.

I've nv get so pissed off. I'm fuming hot now not b cos of just what happen today. My anger's cumulative. Come to think of it, I need to learn to be smarter. I now understand what you once said, you dun care. YES, I am not gonna care either.

不是普通的气，是 fucking 气！